abtagrl

Title: Fix That Hole In You
Author: abtagrl
Band(s): Panic! at the Disco, Empires
Pairing(s): Spencer Smith/Tom Conrad, Spencer Smith/OFCs
Word Count: ~25k
Rating: R
Warning(s): language, sexuality, and underage drinking [& copious amounts of teen angst]
Summary:

When Spencer is 17, his parents separate, leading him to move to Chicago with his dad. Spencer's more than a little confused about who he is, now that he's out from under Ryan's shadow and alone in a new town. Spencer reinvents himself, and with his new image brings a slew of attention and more than his fair share of teen angst. In comes Jon Walker, Spencer's photo teacher, and with Jon comes a new found passion and Tom Conrad, the man who shows Spencer a little glimpse of happiness in The Windy City.

Read it on Ao3


Inspired Works

Fanmix:

Carry On (My Wayward Son) by girlmarauders

The first time I read this story, it was a beautiful piece written by romantical about a funny, sweet little boy and his single dad who was juggling work, parenthood and the dating world. And it was Pete, so it was funny and flaily and so very, very sincere. And also Gabe, who multiplies all feels, sounds and colors by about a thousand.

The first time I heard this story, listening to the wonderful podfic by dapatty, it was a new story; there were crushes and flirting and a gorgeous build-up to a relationship (involving a dad who tries his very, very best, despite the way life seems to happen.)

I think that's the importance, the power, of transformative works: the words may be the same, but the emphasis from another person - the actual act of listening to the words rather than reading them - can help us feel the heart of a story or can help us understand the characters in a light that we had never seen them before. It proves that two talented people can do the same thing and have it be brand new both times.

And the art. I love cover art that can convey the important parts of the story, that can give you a little taste of the story without giving anything away; that is what I offer you today. I hope you enjoy it ♥

Funny that, after 2 years of a trade school that I was promised would make life easier, I am now $20k in debt thanks to my student loans. Funny that, after the hours and hours of working a minimum wage job with tips, at the end of the week I barely make enough to get my bills paid. Funny that, as of today, unless there's a last-minute something-or-other, I now will have my interest rate DOUBLED on said loans. Which means, on top of my ten-year payback plan that already is sucking me dry, I will now have a higher interest rate that will just continue to stack up until I am entirely debt-free.

Uphill battle, every day of my life.

There are days that I regret the whole thing, days that I wish I would have just stuck with telemarketing and maybe moved up the ladder instead. But then, I have a beautiful day at work and remember that there are reasons that I'm doing what I do (and those reasons are love, passion and an uncontrollable urge to create) and that in 15 years, none of the money issues I have now will even be relevant.


Note to self: if all else fails, sugar daddy.

Salutations.

I am Jes, and that's about all you need to know.

I am an avid fan of the Doctor [ten, please] and bandom.